Holy shit, is this my second blog in a week? Dannngggg…. even I’m impressed with myself. Anyways, I thought I’d write about something that has been dragging me down and making me crazier than I already am…WORK. As some of you may or may not know, I work in the Human Resources field, aka I’m an underpaid therapist. Yeah, you read that right. But seriously, some days I feel like a god damn therapist. Which, I did not go to school for! Lately I feel like I’ve been having a quarter-life crisis. I really dislike my job and the company I work for. I’ve actually never felt like such an outsider. And by outsider, I mean someone who thinks outside the box. The people here are so accustomed to doing what they’ve always done. I make suggestions or think of new ideas to try and they look at me like I’m growing a second head. This just isn’t the type of company that I want to work for.
Now granted, I can’t say that I hate my job. Hate is a strong word, after all. And I also know that some of my own unhappiness at work comes from my own shortcomings. I have a hard time letting go of things and don’t like not being in control. But, besides all that, I just feel like I’m meant to do something more, something bigger. I realize how corny that sounds when reading it, and I apologize, but I can’t think of another way to word it. And, not to mention, I want to be happy when I go to work or at least enjoy it more than not!
Maybe I’ve been reading too many self-help quotes lately, but life is way too short to be stuck doing something that doesn’t promote your own happiness. But how do you figure out what you’re meant to do? How do you figure out what makes you the happiest? And even when you do, how do you know that’s what you deserve?
One thing that I know would make me happy is if I could bring my dog to work with me. I’ll admit it, I’m obsessed with my dog and I’m not ashamed of that. Some of you will get what I mean, some of you will not (cat owners). I always told Carson that Juno and I were a package deal and that he was getting a hell of a package. 🙂
I started reading another book. It’s titled, “You are a badass – how to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life”. I’m only a few pages in and I’m already digging it and the message. In order to be our happiest, most fulfilled self, sometimes we need to be uncomfortable and get outside of our comfort zone. Sometimes we need to do things we wouldn’t normally do. I actually kinda sorta believe this. Hence why Carson, Juno and I packed up and moved to Minneapolis. We were comfortable in Dubuque and we wanted more.
And here we are sitting inside Five Watt Coffee, in South Minneapolis, enjoying some amazing coffee and a beautiful Saturday morning together. I’ve already gotten my work out in and now we can enjoy the rest of the day. Maybe lay by the pool, maybe take a nap, maybe check out a brewery. I don’t know, I don’t know if we’ll have enough time. (I sure hope you caught that quote from Old School). 🙂 Anyways, today is a good day.